Crystal Wings

Things change, time flies. And so do I.

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Location: Sydney, New South Wales, Australia

About me. Well, I COULD lie and make things interesting, or I COULD tell you the truth and let you decide, but i'd rather you just form your own opinions.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005


A lady fell today as I was setting up the stall. She was walking across, and suddenly fell. Both me and Anne Lise thought for a second that she would get up, give an embarrased smile and be on her way. Then she started bleeding profusely and we both knew that she wasn't getting up. Anne Lise stayed by the woman while I mad a quick dash to call security. By the time they got there the blood had spread and pooled over her head, and an ambulance was immediately arranged. This was not how I had intended to start my shift.

Paramedics came and administered CPR before a screen was place around the area. Not long after she was taken away and janitor was assigned to mop the blood away. Last I heard her condition has stabilised. I don't understand what happened. She didn't slip, she didn't cry out. She just....crumpled and started bleeding. The unfortunate event threw both me and Anne Lise off, and the day didn't quite proceed as smoothly. It was busy, and we could barely keep up. Chantelle wasn't pleased that the stall looked like a hurricane just blew past but we managed to get everything under control and close down normally.

On another note, I might finally get a long desired job at the Games Wizards, though it would mean abandoning my post at Mabuzi during a time of need. Christmas is around the corner, and business is picking up. I won't hear if I have a shot at the job until tomorrow, but in the unlikely event I actually get it, i'll have to consider if I really want it. Ah well, no point fussing about it now. I'll handle things as they come.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Step outside myself

It would seem that i've been lax with blogging of late. I really don't have an excuse so i'll have to buck up. Maria left for Germany today, and i'll miss her. Yesterday we went out to have an excellent chocolate mudcake at Badde Manors followed by a good (albeit a little dull at some points) movie called The Constant Gardener. We parted ways soon after the movie ended and right now she's on her 27 hour flight back to Germany. I've had a long day at work and i'm pretty tired. The weather hasn't been all that pleasent over the past few days, with constant rain and low temperatures more reminiscent of winter than summer. It will pass I suppose.

After comparing the prices between a 2Gb thumb drive and a 2Gb Ipod Nano, I might get myself the Ipod as a birthday gift to myself. The prices are virtually identical! If I can get a student discount at the Apple Center on the corner of Broadway it will work out to be cheaper, so why not?

Well look who's come to visit - Lucy the very beautiful and highly distracting cat. I'll have to end this one here to tend to my rather demanding guest.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Door number 2

Well it's official. My semester is over, i'm done with my exams. I should be jumping for joy right about now but I don't feel like it, and rightly so. What next? I'll be working over December and the holidays and that will be a welcome relief from this gaping hole that grows bigger by the day. If I let it go unchecked i'll be consumed as I have been over the past few months. Now that I have time on my hands its time to bring the fight to the foe. First things first. I need to stop blaming myself. I've been connecting the dots in my life so far but I haven't really taken a step back to see how the picture is going. I've also had more second chances than I deserve. It's time to take door number 2. And this time i'll stick to it to the bitter end. And if I need 'inspiration' all I have to do is look back over all my half-assed and unfinished attempts to set things straight. The past is never far away, but I know that's because i've never really done what I needed to do to move on.

Time to say goodbye.

Sunday, November 13, 2005


Today my t-shirt customizing escapades took me to Newtown Festival, where Mabuzi had a stall set up to for the first time there. I remember last year's festival. I had gone alone and almost walked home with a pair of ducks. Have I really been here 2 years? I feel shortchanged somehow. Like i've been robbed of time.

On all accounts the festival was a success. For Mabuzi i'm not so sure, though i'm sure we did pretty well too. I'm opening the stall tomorrow morning in Broadway, and considering how tired I am, it might be a good idea for me to get some sleep. Once i'm done watching the Machinist, I will.

On a different note, once I got off work I had the Eye of Horus airbrushed to the back of my sunburnt neck. It isn't much and it will be gone in a few days, but for the time being I think it looks good.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Point Break

I had the most interesting morning today. After falling prey to the exhausting effects of my Law exam, I spent the rest of yesterday at work. Having very little to eat and sleep over the past few days I was already nearing the point of exhaustion. Cut to this morning. At 10.30am sharp I wake up to realize that I had slept past the alarm and was an hour late for work. To make matters worse, I was the only one opening the stall today! 45 minutes, a shower, shave, apologetic phone call and a hurried cab ride later, I finally arrived to open the store without incident. I thank the Heavens to have found such an understanding employer.

Still, its incredibly uncharacteristic of me to have slept past my alarm the way I did. I guess I really did need sleep. My reflection yesteday night looked more like Skeletor than it did me. Tonight i'm going to bed much earlier. I already feel sleep weighing heavily on my eyelids.

Exhaustion. Gotta love it when the flesh is weak, no matter how willing the spirit.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Rear View Mirror

The exam continues. I've managed to dig up enough info to write and finish up 3 out of the 4 questions for the paper but I have yet to commit the details into actual answers. It seems that my lethargy persists through even the most dire of situations. While I remain awake I must take the time to type out at least 2 of my answers so I can get them over and done with.

I took a look through my past performance and all of a sudden it hits. Panic? No, not really. My time here is certainly running out, but what then? In 6 months there's even possibility that i'll be done with my studies and thrust out into the world. What happens next? Surely printing t-shirts is not what i'm meant to do. Music? I'll have to work on my craft much much more before i'll be ready. Go home? I don't even want to think about that for the moment. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, digging my own grave. Its one thing to go on as I have and think that I have all the time in the world. Its another situation entirely when the light at the end of the tunnel is rushing towards you like a runaway freight train. Whether i'm ready or not, it's coming. And judging by the way i've handled my situation of late, I know exactly how prepared I am to face it.

Not. At. All.

Friday, November 04, 2005


It looks like i'm in trouble. Then again, when am I not? I'm sitting here looking at my Law exam and a black hole just opened in the pit of my stomach. You know that sinking feeling you get when you realize that you've got out of the house, locked everything up and forget that you've left your keys inside? That feeling. But worse. Much worse. I can make it through the paper, no doubt about it, but there's very little room for error. Still, it can't be as bad as my upcoming Database exam, which will probably be much worse.

On a different note, Ramadan is over and I can eat 3 square meals a day again. Now would be the time to ask for forgiveness over past grievances. So, dear reader, please accept my heartfelt apology if i've offended you or given you cause to be upset over the past year. Knowing me I probably didn't realize it, which is what makes it worse. It means that i'm bound to repeat the same mistakes next year. In which case I apologize for that in advance. Nothing like covering yourself for future deeds is there?

If only my logic wasn't so tragically flawed.